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NPR: A 'Recovering Skinhead' On Leaving Hatred Behind

14 March 2013
9 minute read

As a teenager, Frank Meeink was one of the most well-known skinhead gang
members in the country. He had his own public access talk show, called The
Reich, he appeared on Nightline and other media outlets as a spokesman for neo-Nazi
topics, and he regularly recruited members of his South Philadelphia
neighborhood to join his skinhead gang.

At 18, Meeink spent several years in prison for kidnapping one man and
beating another man senseless for several hours. While in prison, Meeink says,
he was exposed to people from a variety of ethnic and racial backgrounds and
started reevaluating his own racist beliefs. His transformation solidified, he
tells Dave Davies, after the Oklahoma City bombing, when he saw the iconic photo
of a firefighter cradling a lifeless girl in his arms.

"I felt so evil. Throughout my life, even when I was tattooed up and wanting
to be a skinhead, I felt like maybe I was bad on the outside. But I felt good on
the inside," he says. "And that day it switched. I felt OK on the outside, but I
felt so evil inside. I had no one to talk to. … So I went to the FBI and … I
told them my story. I said ‘I don’t have any information on anybody, but I just
need to let you know what it’s like.’ And of course they wanted to listen,
because the Oklahoma City bombing had happened."

The FBI recommended that Meeink contact the Anti-Defamation League — which he
did. He now regularly lectures to students about racial diversity and acceptance
on behalf of the ADL, and he has written a memoir about his past, called
Autobiography of a Recovering Skinhead
.

Meeink says the biggest change in the skinhead movement since he left is how
easily members can spread their message and communicate with one another.

"When I was around, we contacted each other through P.O. Box numbers — and
not through Web sites," he says. "So the Web has really got numbers looking
bigger than they are. But you gotta remember, too: Sometimes those are just
misguided kids who are looking for anything to do. But if your children are
looking at these Web sites more regularly, and they’re not looking at them for
research, you need to step in and ask why and ask the right questions."

Interview Highlights

On the neighborhood where Meeink grew up, in South Philadelphia

"You’re raised knowing don’t go into the other neighborhoods. It’s passed
down through generations of Irish people in the neighborhood. So I come from a
place that has a feel-good background to it. We’re very proud of being Irish.
Proud of being working class. And it was a tough neighborhood. A lot of drugs
and alcohol were really bad in our neighborhood. Decisions were made in our
neighborhood at the Catholic church or in the bar."

On how attending a predominantly African-American middle school influenced
his later racial hatred

"That school was what did it for me. Growing up in South Philly, where we
just had this Irish pride thing, I never really thought of the other races or
the other races who lived around us as inferior or as much trouble because most
of the kids — and most of the fistfights you got into — were with other Irish
kids. We all knew each other. So it wasn’t this big ‘I hate them.’ It was just
an us-them. Once I got out there and noticed that the ‘us’ was very, very small
and the ‘them’ was very, very big — and there was no one helping me — and I
think that’s where it started."

On how he became involved with neo-Nazi activities

I went up to the Lancaster, Pa., area, and I’m up there and some of my family
— my mother’s sister, my aunt and uncle moved up there with their kids. And I
was very close with all of my cousins. … My cousin that lived in the Lancaster
area was very into punk rock, very into skateboarding. And I couldn’t wait to
get up there that summer and live there all summer. That was the summer I was
getting out of that [middle] school. So I get up there, and he’s not a
skateboarder anymore. He’s not a punk rocker anymore. He’s a skinhead. And in
his room, there’s a swastika flag and stories about Adolf Hitler and stories
about skinheads. … And I knew of skinheads, but I didn’t know of their beliefs
or anything yet. And he kind of introduces me to it. He says, ‘You know, this is
what it is.’ And now every night, all these other skinheads would come over his
house and come drinking and listening to music. And they’d always give me a
couple beers. I was the young kid to the group. You know, they’re all 15-, 16-,
17-year-old guys who are cool to me. And they gave me a beer, and they start
talking ‘multiracial society will never work.’ Now, I have no idea what that
means at all."

On the ideology of the neo-Nazi movement

"When they would say these bigger words, like multiracial and multiracial
society, I had no idea in depth what that meant. When I asked, they would say
about blacks and whites not getting along, and I understood what they were
talking about. And we’re sitting around, and they’d say, ‘Oh, you went to school
in Philadelphia. What’s it like?’ These kids have never really been down to the
city, so they’re asking me what it’s like to go to school there, and I’m telling
them it’s horrible, I hate it, it’s hell. And for me, when I look back on that
now, that was finally someone saying to me, ‘How is your life? How are you doing?
How is your school?’ Because my parents never said, ‘How was school today? What’d
you learn?’ They never did that. For once, someone’s asking me how my life is."

On his media appearances as a skinhead

"I did a lot of national TV shows, like with Ted Koppel and other news
organizations, and so I’ve been kind of a face. And it just kind of happened,
where someone said, ‘You are the face of our movement.’ I did a TV show. They
liked me because basically I looked like a nut, so they wanted me on their other
shows, and, you know, swastikas on a young kid’s neck sells TV shows, so now I
did a couple shows like that, and I kind of made a name for myself. And then
when I [moved] to Illinois, I wasn’t doing much media press, but I was really
trying to get this thing started, so I got my own cable access show. … Called
it The Reich, like Hitler’s Reich and the Third Reich, and started a talk show
about being a skinhead. So everyone got to know me from this talk show and it
went on from there. What I’d do to recruit kids from that show — I mean, it was
easy — I’d go on, say this is what I’m into, then the media would pick up on it."

On the crime that landed him in prison

"There was this lefty-type skinhead that hung around us in Springfield
[Illinois] and he was the only one. And him, me and my roommate kinda had a
falling out. My roommate didn’t like him. I didn’t like him. And I didn’t like
mainly his political beliefs. So I [told him], ‘Come over to our house on
Christmas Eve for a Christmas party,’ and when he came over, there was no
Christmas party. It was just me and my roommate waiting for him. And we
kidnapped him and we randomly beat this other human being for hours and
videotaped the whole thing as a joke. And that’s eventually what got me put in
prison."

On his withdrawal from the skinhead community

"It had already come to me [while in prison]: Maybe I need to start looking
at things. But I still always thought my purpose in life [was] God wouldn’t have
put me in this purpose of being an Aryan Christian soldier if he didn’t want me
here. So I’m still trying to say, ‘There’s something going on but I need to
stick with this because that’s where I am. This is my team.’ But I’m on a train
one day, and I’m talking to this black dude, and he just sits down next to me
and he asks if I did prison time. He’s seen all my tattoos. Me and him start
talking about prison life, about how we get away with things, how we sneak
things away from guards and sneak food out, and just prison talk. So he gets off
and he says, ‘Hey man. Real nice to meet you. You’re really down to Earth.’ And
this is on the El train. So he gives me a pound and I get off and I walk off to
this skinhead meeting that night. And these are all old recruits of mine in
Philadelphia. These are all guys I got into this. … And I’m sitting at this
party and I’m drinking … and I’m thinking about some of the guys I just did
time with and parts of my life with my family, and one of the guys stands up and
he starts saying, ‘Italians ain’t white,’ and I’m half Irish, half Italian, and
I let him sit for a second. And he doesn’t know half of us are Italian in the
Philly crew, and I say, ‘Hey, buddy. I’m half Italian, what do you think of that?’
And he says, ‘OK,’ and kinda the whole party stops. … So then we’re sitting
there and everyone starts talking again about it, and I say, ‘How ’bout my
daughter? My daughter’s probably more than 75 percent Italian. Are you saying
she’s not white?’ And he says, ‘Nope, she ain’t white.’ And I just beat the crap
out of this guy at this party. And I get everyone off of me and I say, ‘I’m
outta here.’ And I walk back down, and I’m going to go catch the train by myself
and go back home, and I had been drinking a little bit. And I remember looking
up at God and saying, ‘God, maybe there’s something wrong. Maybe you’re right.
Maybe on the black, Asian and Latino issue, maybe we are all equal."

Autobiography of a Recovering Skinhead
By Frank Meeink
Paperback, 316 pages
Hawthorne Press
List price: $15.95

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